:: Juneoesque ::

Please stand by me...

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 20:25:09 GMT

For months, Eugene has never truly left my heart (8 months and counting). people may (kinda) come and go.. i'd evaluate (i'm sure its vice versa) and realise no one comes close. Perhaps only JK managed to come a little close to Eugene.

I liked JK coz initially i felt that he was very different from Eugene. Eugene would never ask me out to join him and his friends (even thou he denies this) despite my 'complains' but JK would ask me to join him and his friends ALL THE TIME. The funny thing is while im dying to join Eugene and his friends, to meet and befriend them, i dread it when JK ask me to. I much prefer hanging out with just JK alone.

and i never had to date JK coz he wld do the asking... he wld ask me for movies and stuff like dat.. so i figured JK would and can treat me really well. his smuggling of the bear into the cinema for me and all did kind of touched me.

the whole world was asking me to quickly drop Eugene. Many were saying that i'm taking much too long for such a short romance. I too felt the need to find someone else whom i can devote myself to. I figured amongst those who came along, only JK seemed to emerge. He gave a rather secure feeling despite it all.

Even when i know that JK had issues with his ex gf (some time ago), i was fine. He just somehow gave me this feeling he will not cheat.

However, what i didnt calculate was, this person doesnt really know how to care for me. Our communication was a major blunder. It came to a point where its totally frustrating. And he always asked me along with his friends was coz his priorities was with his friends no matter wat. Everything that i say is like a conversation to the air. The person can upset me and not feel a thing. I end up confiding back to Eugene who happens to be the best 'cushion' in such scenerios. It was most comfortable.

It is definitely not the most correct way of handling the situations (both ways). But truth is, either way the only person who got hurt is only just myself. Not anyone else. N who is to understand what im gg thru in terms of feelings?

Most importantly, at the end of it all, what i think and feel now is, i would much much rather let Eugene be the one who hurts me if he should ever hurt me again. I'd rather it be him den some random guy friends like OPK or ST who thinks dat im so into them and takes this info to boost their ego to their friends. Like what crabby said.. " wat?! they never even came close! ". I may just enjoy that distraction, the company and i was probably just being nice as a friend.

For Eugene, I know the odds are very much against me. I know Eugene may be considered as 'high risk'. But i love him. Very much. I surprise myself by the things i'm willing to do for him or put up for him. But i know why.. its coz he makes me very happy. He can make me very happy even when he doesnt do anything. He brings me so much joy.

So far he has been the only one who is able to give me the feeling dat he's the one i've been looking for (not saying this is a constant feeling coz he does make me feel intensely insecure too), he's the only one whom i'd feel totally at peace and at ease after a super stressful day of work.. its like when i see him, nothing else bothers me. I have Eugene and dats all it matters.

I know he's not the type to bother to celebrate anniversaries or festives with me. i know he probably has attention of many others (coz while some of you may not agree, it is a fact that he is very popular and very charming!!).. i know he won't be tagged on fb pictures (and i do wonder if its coz of the presence of other potentials thou he denies it). i know all these and a lot more but I ACCEPT. I accept all these coz i'm not his girlfriend anymore so who am i to kick up a fuss. n, i've made my decision to persist. I hope one day, i can win my Eugene back.

i've never developed any of my digital photos but for the first time i did! Eugene and i both know about the law of attraction and one day before i went to bed after talking to him on the phone i decided i want a picture of Eugene in my room. one dat i can look at before heading to bed and when i wake up....

i also developed a few of our pictures for him and i told him to look at it everyday and think of growing to love me more OR think of me loving him less so i can stop bothering him. he luffed and chucked the photos in his car drawer.. haha...

and yes, we've been in touch (we even went on a date!) lately and even though its been a roller coaster ride, its good enuff for me. at least roller coaster means i have times of genuine cloud 9s and hell. Like the past few days, one day i can be over the moon and another i can be quite upset. Days when im over the moon coz of him, i can shove all other issues bothering me aside. Whereas the past 6 mths w/o him has been just entirely a downward slope. And i know a lot of u know and can tell.. work aside, i'm like THERE yet NOT THERE. i indulge and keep myself busy with all kinds of activities looking like im having fun though i dun genuinely think i am dat happy. the times when im truly luffing seems to be more of intoxication happiness.

and to be honest, i can kinda feel dat.. lately he seems to be trying too - and i don't really care its for watever reasons. thats good enuff for me. any little bit from him means a whole lot to me.

i hope that as friends, you can stand by me. This persistence period, i duno how long he will let me sustain it but i hope i can eventually pay off. I hope, perhaps with such faith and devotion, Heaven will be moved to bring Eugene's heart to me.

I'm very blessed to have you...

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 12:34:56 GMT

i really love her. i look back, think back and i feel so touched.

the first day i saw her, i never thot i would actually be able to be such close friends with her. She looked like someone whom everyone can only admire from afar. Guys or girls alike. I thot she probably is some part time model.

but not only is she warm, she is sweet and most importantly, she has grown to be a part of me. She takes the time and effort to know me, understand me and be there for me. She may not exactly KNOW what i think all the time but she makes the effort to put it in her heart to remember what i want, what i like, what i think and most importantly how i feel. Its the little things she say that really touches my heart...

" u know the thing that excites me is my new home! I went to see the showroom and it's lovely! I'm gonna throw houseparties so prawny wun be so lonely on weekends anymore haha! But that's in 2012 "

my heart felt a tug when i read that how she has me in mind.

i think back and recall how she specially came to palais when i had my first date with JJ.. just to be there to give me that moral n physical support.

how she painstakingly planned 2 birthday surprises for me. One even involved getting me my dream present - eugene tied in a ribbon.

how she knows from experience what i cannot stand, she won't do because she knows what and how it will upset me.

how she cried too when she knew i was very depressed and she didnt know what to do.

i can whine to her abt everything and i koe she wun judge me and she will still love me the same. and she sees the good in me. she defends me when people don't understand.. even when she may not understand sometimes she still defends me coz she sees my good.

I LOVE YOU CRABBY LEA WEI JIAYI.

Busy with what?

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 16:25:55 GMT

Yunping has joined my company too! Been kinda mentoring her for the past week but been too busy to really teach her teach her coz work has simply been crazy... thank god she seems to be fast enough to learn based on her observations.

anyway had a short funny conversation with her and crabby when we finally had time to 'rest' while waiting for a customer to arrive.

Yunping was teasing us (both crabby and me) for not having time to really coach her and conversations led to facebook.. how after a hectic day at work, u gradually don't really have time to really really play the games dat you are usually hooked onto. For yunping and myself its Pets Society.

den crabby was asking.. " so my pet got new clothes or not? " (coz i'm playing Crabby's account as well for Pets Society).

me: " of coz! i always buy 2 sets! very busy leh.. i haf 5 pets and 5 restaurants to take care of! " (i'm playing my account, my kameiria's account, crabby's account, jo-ann's account and eugene's account for pets society.. hee)

den yunping replied: " den 我不是更惨！我还要耕田和养鱼！"

HAHAHHAHAHAHA

now u know why juneoesque is more den a month outdated!

its been 8 months.

The Seafoodies

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 19:36:03 GMT

A group picture of our monthly gatherings will be updated here after our every gathering... (also to make sure no one is absent!)

Nov 06 - Basil Alcove (23rd Nov 06 )

Dec 06 - Checkers (16th Dec 06)

Jan 07 - Papi (21st Jan 07)

Feb 07 - Miss Clarity Cafe (13th Feb 07)

Mar 07 - Kbox Cineleisure (22nd Mar 07)

Apr 07 - Zouk (27th Apr 07)

May 07 - Shimbashi Soba (11th May 07)

June 07 - Swiss Culture (28th June 07)

July 07 - Shi Nai (23rd July 07 )

August 07 - Cafe Cartel (21st August 07)

September 07 - Fish & Co. (27th September 07)

October 07 - Hard Rock Cafe (4th October 2007)

November 07 - Seah Street Deli (28th November 2007)

December 07 - Le Bar (21st December 2007)

January 08 - Sofra (22nd January 2008)

February 08 - Say Cheeze Cafe (29th February 2008)

March 08 - Giraffe (29th March 2008)

April 08 - Potluck @ Prawny's (27th April 2008 )

May 08 - Blu Jaz Cafe (14th May 2008)

June 08 - Waraku (19th June 2008)

July 08 - Rogues (16th July 2008)

August 08 - Swensens (28th August 2008)

September 08 - Scotts Lounge (28th September 2008)

October 08 - The Seafood International Market & Restaurant (17th October 2008)

November 08 - Chong Qing Steamboat (20th November 2008)

December 08 - Batam (13th December 2008)

January 09 - Popeye's Chicken (8th January 2009)

February 09 - Oomphatico's (13th February 2009)

March 09 - Brewerks (30th March 2009)

April 09 - Thai Express (28th April 2009)

May 09 - Timbre (13th May 2009)

Jun 09 - Archipelago (29th June 2009)

Jul 09 - Oso (7th July 2009)

Aug 09 - Tampopo (7th August 2009)

Sep 09 - Ah Wok (17th September 2009)

Oct 09 - Hot Stones (13th October 2009)

Nov 09 - JB (21st November 2009)

*to be continued... with many happy times to come...

Humans are emotionally weaker at night

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 07:51:50 GMT

so sleep early.

Food tasting at Tetsu

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:24:28 GMT

gotta thank Tetsu for inviting me down for a complimentary food tasting session. i was allowed to bring guests along. Lisa and Wilson came along.

Tetsu is located at Tanglin Mall....

we first met up with Rachael, their PR lady where she gave us a brief introduction and also gave her recommendations on the menu.

this food tasting session was a bit different from the previous one i had whereby the menu was pre-determined. For this session, it was really like a normal meal session where we got to order what we felt like trying.

the first item i specially requested for, was the kani tofu with century egg! I love the one from shunjuu and i hope this one is good....

THUMBS UP! it proved to be really good! its a pity they always serve this dish in such small portions. i can easily down 2 - 3 of these on my own! hehe

we also got to try the processed puffer fish upon wilson's request...

it tastes like bak kua. i think i've tried this previously at other japanese restaurants, this item didnt leave much of an impression.

i requested for the steamed tofu. i've always seen this around at those more atas japanese restaurants and i have always always wondered how special do these tofu taste? is it really so darn smooth or wat... coz its always so expensive, i've always refrained myself but today, i got to try it!

it really is very smooth and served chilled. with the soya sauce its really good!! gives a very healthy feeling when you down it. haha

den theres the sashimi platter...

it was a generous portion with a good variety. we requested for their uni and also my fav cuttlefish, sword fish and all..

they even added a seasonal fish for us...

it was all nice and fresh.

another one of my request is this fried shrimp thingy!

oh god i love this! when i saw it i knew i had to try it! reminded me of the manhatten fish market's one (which they had removed from their menu.. got me sooo disappointed). it turned out to be just as good! its crispy shrimps, saltish and so nice and easy to eat!! YUMMY!!

also tried some of their sushi....

the way they did their tamago sushi was relatively unique and different from usual. the beancurd skin one was ok.. the eel one was specially recommended by Rachael. its quite different from the usual eel we haf. apparently its different water eel (if i recall correctly). its quite nice.. juicier den the usual.

next up is the pork katsu, one of their speciality!

im usually skeptical abt pork katsu. lotsa places have raves but when i tried its just so so. i like their pork katsu. its really quite tender. Lisa had issues abt their fatty portions. I, on the contary liked the fatty parts as well. i feel dat they should always haf a fatty portion. the area ard the fats are usually more tender!

their sauce...

one of their special katsu is this chicken with ham, asparagus and cheese...

there was mixed reviews abt the cheese. generally wilson, lisa and myself found the cheese to be too light. i guess we haf very strong palate when it comes to cheese but the manager did explain they had changed the cheese to suit the wider general public's palate which i can totally understand coz i do 9 out of my 10 friends cannot stand strong cheese like myself. haha

we were also given sake...

its sooo smooth! its really good!

the beef was quite disappointing though...

it tasted like duck. the sauce was a bit too sweet for our liking.

the miso cod fish....

this was really good. the miso sauce did not overpower the fish. it complimented it. the fish was fresh, soft and yummy.

Rachael also recommended the soba...

it was rather Q and not bad. i am tempted to try the thinner version the next time though.

den theres the tempura...

their tempura was ok...

i liked dat it was rather crunchy prawns and it was big portions and not too thick batter. but it didnt wow me.

enjoying the food!

and finally, desserts time!

we had a green tea ice cream and a pomelo sherbet....

the green tea ice cream was ok but the pomelo sherbet was really nice!!! its the same one from Ikoi! its got real pomelo skin shavings within. its really addictive and gets u wanting more!

overall a very delightful dinner and i really want to thank Rachael and Tetsu for the generous invitation. I'll definitely want to be back!

my fav items are the kani tofu century egg, the fried shrimps and the pomelo sherbet!

Prawny goes prawning again!

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 13:23:49 GMT

i enjoy prawning. its fun!

arranged with darren, cheryl and zixiang to head down again after dinner the other day and darren asked the rest along.

some pictures...

our first catch!

cheryl sure had beginners' luck!

her first catch was a BIG ONE!

in fact today we had quite a few BIG ones!

but this is cheryl's fav catch!

why darren? pi gu must ciao ciao den can catch is it?

their dance teacher and terence...

cooking the prawns!

i also did catch one big one ok! hehe

was ying long's birthday so we gave him the biggest one as his bday present!

the prawns are yummyyyyy! i wana go prawning again!

Jerry came to pick me up and sent me back.

Akashi @ Paragon is still in operations.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 22:13:20 GMT

LOUSY LIAR.

Please vote for Rachael Choi!

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 13:03:06 GMT

today is dear dear's 50 gorgeous people event @ ION. Some miscommunication about the timing with leonard got me pretty late.

was cam whoring at home.. oh yes, dun remind me of the puffy eyes and dark eye rings.. i know about them!

anyway but i did still manage to meet up with dear dear and chris for awhile. we went halloween shopping!

she got her hello kitty mousepad....

us!

bewitched!

after that i went to meet up with leonard and janice for a short while, did a short shopping den went to meet ishan and joey at paragon. on my way there, i bumped into lionel and audrey who walked me to paragon.. so yeah, im pretty much surrounded by lovey dovey couples today. haha

me!

dinner with joey n ishan at coffee club.

joey had a smoked salmon pasta...

i had a beef stew...

mmmm.. their beef stew is not bad. i mean for that price, i'd come back often. it may not be as good as brassierie or desire's but its good enuff. haha

shan had some chilli crab wrap..

she said it was good. i didnt quite like how saltish it was.

we decided to adjourn over to canele for desserts!

Joey and myself...

ishan..

ishan and me!

the lovely couple!

we shared a strawberry eclair...

and a strawberry shortcake.

their strawberry shortcake still remains as the best i've ever had. the eclair was a little hard, not quite what i like.

ishan with the cake....

me with the eclaire..

after it all, i went to meet lisa and kwang at annie's ktv pub...

and last but not least, although i missed the event earlier for dear dear, here are the pictures i ripped from her friend's albums.... please vote for her!

Hip Hop Butter Girls!

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 21:47:49 GMT

Eugene came to pick me up and we had lunch. i told him i was in the mood for bak kut teh and we headed over to balestier.

it was a series of not so fortunate events. firstly we couldnt get parking coz it was lunch time. den we decided to head to lavander food court but it was closed for renovations! there was also a terrible bad jam along the way and we figured dat if we had sticked to balestier to wait, we'd probably be eating already. I asked him whether its coz he didnt bath when he came out today! haha.. he agreed to drive back coz my mind was all bak kut teh.. bak kut teh.. bak kut teh.....! hehe

made him take pictures with me when we were in the car..

we had the founder bak kut teh...

it was yummy! the bak kut is the very long kind with meat. the soup is yummy esp with the you tiao! the pork trotters is yummy also. realised he likes the beancurd skin. i get quite excited when i discover something new about him especially his likes.

a very popular bak kut teh place..

eugene....

hiding from my camera!

he dun like to take i take myself!

and he is very amused at how much i like to cam whore....

but when i make him take pictures with me, hes not luffing so happily already...

haha. he dropped me off for my appointment after lunch.

after work, i changed out of my pretty floral dress and got all HIP! haha.. its the HIP HOP day with the butter girls!

when Justin saw me, he was kinda excited and asked me why he is not invited. he said he is hip hop king and he asked me.. " do you know why i'm called justin? ". apparently our boss shida gave him the name after a hip hop theme D&D.. justin for justin timberlake! hahha

yo yo!

and.... our justin timberlake is also our cleaniness monitor!

lately, there is a clean desk policy going on. its almost driving us mad. its been going round that clean desk policy means can only haf 3 things on the table. our laptop, the mous and the phone. Everything else must be locked up. No toys, no displays etc!

den we 'complained'... why the cleaniness monitor himself can put toys....

haha.. so many some more!!

apparently.... its coz he displays them neatly. but honestly, got to give it to him! he is very very organised and tidy!

waited for kaizhi to knock off together to head over to cityhall. on our way there, bumped into dear dear!

she was the one who lent me the star necklace for my hip hop outfit!

it totally completes the whole look!

Camilia arrived with a little surprise for us!

so cute! mini cupcakes! super duper adorable!

we did dinner at Carls Jr....

the fast food totally matches our hip hop outfits!

and over dinner, we did our o-ar-pay-ar-som to determine the teams for our pool session later!

and a bit more cam whoring before we went for pool...

siqi was kinda the one who came up with the theme for today and everyone were onz. i do kinda enjoy this group of girls. it feels like they are there and they have rather engaging activities from time to time. i like how everyone makes the effort to dress up to the theme! so onz!

pool time!

team 1!

Team 2!

P.K!

another of kaizhi's colleague Vamsee came to join us as well...

so we formed new teams!

siqi and myself are a little not used to being in different teams. haha

kaizhi tried to distract the guys when they played and they called her a highlighter because of the colour and brightness of her jacket...

very big n cute plushie!

oops.. siqi! see no evil!

oops.. erm.. why so small .. =x

caught in the act...

and den texas hold em at vamsee's bachelor's pad...

ultimate winner gets a winning treat @ wan tou shek's dim sum! (dats ME!)